The red brick starts...

Wow, it's been so long since i've actually taken to this thing... Looking back on previous entries, it's crazy to see the amount of stress and pressure that I seemed to be under. I don't even recognize that person. 
So much has happened in the past 18 months. People have died, people have been born and re-born. I have lost many friends and gained many friends. I got to see another side of humanity that I never knew existed. I've found my soulmate but also had my heart broken more times than I could possibly count. What does any of that have to do with Michael Jackson? Well, a lot. 
As a whole this entire death hoax has changed us as people. 
I recently had the most amazing conversation with someone that changed my entire perspective on all of this. 
He made me see that even though Michael Jackson is alive and well, the "death hoax' itself is not what it appears to be. Or should I say not what we've created it to be. 
I started this journey when I was 25 years old. I will be 27 in two months.  Time has gone by so quickly and I had not even noticed. 
I love Michael Jackson and have the kind of respect for him that I don't have for any other person on this earth, but for me personally, the journey has come to an end. 
I have neglected so much in my life only to find out the entire purpose behind this was to "LIVE". Michael needs to live. His children need to live and that's something that he was never able to do. 
I have made many mistakes and kicked down so many bricks in all of this. I let people inside of me and let them have access to parts of me that should have been completely off limits to strangers. I always told people that they should embrace Michael Jackson the man and not the product... But have I? 
The man would never be foolish enough to be such an open book. 


The biggest reason that I am choosing to step away from this is because as a whole, I don't feel like people really have learned anything from this. For almost five months, I endured horrible HORRIBLE abuse from what was supposed to be the  most loving group of people in the world.  MJ fans. Come to find out a lot of people behind this abuse have been doing grotesque and very VERY deceitful things to thousands of people themselves. They were not "exposing" my secrets or calling me out for the better good of the MJ community, but just out of spite and evil because it was something to do.


Who deserves that? Yes they have stopped and I am glad that drama is a thing of the past. But that pain will never subside. People dragging the loss of someone that i love through the mud, People finding personal photographs of me doing a difficult time in my life and making fun of me, starting horrible rumors and attacking  others that I care about . Lying to me, using me and playing with me for their own agendas. Everything that happened to me is a reflection of what happened to Michael and it made me wonder. Is this the cycle? 
Is this the life that will always be for humanity? It definitely dawned on me why Michael would walk away from everything. What happened to me in just a few months, he had to endure for years. 


Do you know what its like to not trust anybody anymore? Do you know what it feels like to feel pain when somebody tells you they "love you" , because you want to believe them but you cant, because believing them equals weakness and weakness equals more pain and disappointment. 
Nobody on this earth will EVER tell me anything about Michael. I literally want to just hold him and let him cry in my arms for hours because the pain he felt, I KNOW. 


This has been a journey for me and I don't have any regrets... However, i'm exhausted. I'm spent.
I have two videos to finish up and then I will be finished with my series.
I never really got to the things that I wanted to, but it doesn't matter. The truth always comes out and it will :)


To those of you who think that you know me and condemn me. Know that you were very mislead and manipulated. I will pray that God is understanding of you and that you don't have to face judgement for casting your stones at me. What happened in August of this year was the most messed up and traumatic things that I have ever gone through. It has done much damage and was not fake. I came into my chatroom hysterically crying the day that Jonathan hurt himself. Many of you people that have hurt me were THERE. It baffles me how you can say such horrible things when you were THERE when I came in so upset that I couldn't breathe... But I forgive all of you. I really wish nothing but the best for everybody and I honestly mean that. I have found my peace and I love Michael. 


I love you very much and I hope that you know that everybody is not out to betray you or hurt you Michael. You have an honest friend in me and I am proving that to you by what I am doing. You can trust me and I hope that I did you proud.  You are not the superstar to me anymore, i've grown and you have taught me well. I wouldn't change a thing and I will never ever question your decisions. You got this ;)


Thanks guys :)  L.O.V.E

Fo' Real Thank ya!

Hey guys! I just wanted everybody to know that I have a series of interesting videos coming out in the next few weeks :) So much going on with Michael that i'm bursting at the seams to get back to work. 

I just want to say thank you for all of my friends that have been supportive in helping me get back to where I need to be. This was a great weekend and im so lucky to have such positive and great people in my life. I really.

Angelos , you are my rock and my love and even though people tried everything in their power to get you to leave me, im so glad that you saw through the jealousy and BS. I love you so much and look forward to MANY more days making you happy. Thank you for being my everything. You wont regret it I promise.

To all of the haters that are still making boring ass videos, still claiming to have dirt on me blah blah. Do you realize that when I opened my facebook I had 36 messages from different people saying that they were disgusted by your jealousy and actions? Do you realize what a joke you are? I guess I havent made myself clear yet. You are not on my level and you never will be. You are not going to make worthy people hate me. You create lies to sell your bullshit but is it really working. I have never told ANYBODY that roger was Michael I am the one that gets pissed off when people say it. I said that Omer was in my room??? Really since I never believed he was in the first place? Jonathan deleted his myspace in JANUARY of 2010. Nobody wrote comments about him being dead before August. 

Jonathan is no longer with us and I cant believe that people are going to bed at night knowing what they are doing trashing a person that as far as they know is dead. You dont "think" that its true? But do you know 100% that its not true? You cant possibly. So my kind of question is, what kind of Satan do you worship to be so evil and cold? You are sick. SICK to be doing what you are doing. It doesnt bother me anymore because I pity you. But seriously have mercy on your fucking souls for what you are doing.

Keep making the videos. PLEASE. I watched my share and will not watch another one again. What it boils down to is, you are jealous, insecure and you want internet fame. LOL its so so sad. SO many people come to me laughing at you V. Swear to God I mentioned my facebook but didnt even mention my youtube. How many people send me messages laughing their asses off at you trying to get popular off of me. Nobody cares about you. But the people that are jealous of me.

Yaws we got a BIG journey ahead. It does not include people who are jealous, pretend to have powers, pretend to be an insider blah blah blah. It includes people that want the truth about the DEATH HOAX. not the truth about what my ass does in my spare time. Stop embarassing yourselves by following these clowns. 

lol fo' real

later gators ;)

WHAT?!

Hell to the NAW that is NOT Michael Jackson on Breaking news

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVDANc0fyX0

:OOOOO

Breaking news

Yo. I just heard breaking news and wanted to comment on it but before I do

before people start talking shit like V is for vagina a.k.a Leahcim Jackson, I just wanted to say that yes I was away at a treatment facility for a week and now im doing outpatient. No it wasn't rehab wtf? But yeah it doesn't matter. 

Hey (V)agina, guess what even though it could have probably fucked me up, i sat down and watched your lame ass videos today and laughed my ass off. HAHAHAHAAHAHA damn! If you are going to bring a bitch down at least get some REAL dirt on me instead of some fucking screenshots and pictures. Get a life you fucking loser. Pissed because nobody believed that you were the 02 guy. Pissed because your a fucking lame that people are just paying attention to because I haven't been around to bring awesome videos. Shut your weak ass up. Bitch I dont need attention or fame. I already have it boo. You are fucking lame and irrelavent. And im attacking people? WHO. I don't give a fuck about you or any other lames on twitter. I dont know who dontplaygamesv is. those videos are just as whack as yours. None of you pathetic bitches are on my level. So shut the fuck up and get over it. Keep making videos about me because though I dont need attention, I fucking love the spotlight and all that you are doing is making me more popular. YOU ARE A FUCKING LAME. You have done NOTHING to prove that I am Elliot or that I created Jonathan. Now you are trying to fuck with Virignia? Who the fuck is scared of you. She is laughing her ass off at your punk ass. Please if Virginia really wanted to give a fuck and took action against your games your ass would be online crying and begging for forgiveness. But guess what boo? NOBODY gives a fuck. You're lame as hell and all of the people that follow and run with you are LAME. 

Even when i WAS fat, I wasnt a loser and looked better than all of you idiots. Grow up and stop trying so hard. That shit is funny. I am totally serious. I laughed my ASS off at your videos. Like for real what did you expose?  

Guys AGAIN whatever happened to me had NOTHING to do with Vagina Creachim or his loser friends. I was away for a week and now I am doing an outpatient program and im feeling GREAT. Please dont get upset or worry about those lame ass videos or these jealous people talking shit. I told everybody that I made a mistake by lying about some pics to protect my friends. I said I was sorry. Time to get the fuck over it or move on. Because I really don't care what people think. SO ANYWAYS.

Breaking news? In my honest opinion I feel like the track is Michael Jackson. If not fully him, his vocals are mixed in there. What I need to know is, what is the point of using someone else on an MJ track? If Michael was dead and Sony has all of these unreleased tracks, why use a fake one? Also I encourage everybody to check out Pearl Jr.s video on her website. :O Shocking about the breaking news preview.

Im working on tons of shit including myself. :) All I have to say is, if you are being attacked by these loser ass haters, IGNORE THEM. These people are not Michael Jackson fans. They are people who listen to his music and think that they know about him. These are people that like to play God but cant back anything up. THEY need attention. But they are irrelevant and nobody is scared of them. I am not a gamer and neither is Virignia, or Elliot or anybody else in my circle. We were all very close friends and we lost a part of us. Respect that and dont pay attention to these people. They are LOSERS. 

My activity online is limited as part as my treatment but you guys have my email, paltalk and skype if you have questions about stuff. Please ignore the drama. Especially from people who are completely morons. 

CCCC YAAA :)

Exclusive from where I be

Hey guys,

I don't have internet access where I am and am doing this blog through my cousins Ipad. I know that this is going against everything that I need to be doing to get better and I was planning on just doing a VLOG when I returned in two weeks, but i've spoken to a people on the telephone and have some knowledge of what is going on and I feel like though I don't have enough time to explain everything, I can at least make some things clear. I have been online one time since last week. I am not Mediahype again or any other person that is making blogs or videos or anything. I don't care who chooses to believe me but I wanted to make that very clear. I read Elliots blog posts the first one and can say that he is telling the truth about everything. There are also a few things that I did not know about. I wish that he had not made the choice to speak for me, but he did and I can't reverse it. What he said was true though and all that I can say is that I am sorry for my part in misleading people. It was selfish to allow something like that to happen without standing my ground and doing what was right, but I felt the need to protect Jonathan and Elliot. 

Listen to me ok? Jonathan was a real person..... Everything that happened on August 5th HAPPENED. It is unbelievably sick for people to sit here everyday and make a mockery of that time in my life. Maybe I was wrong for not being completely honest about that. Maybe I was deserving of it being exposed. But that is the only thing that I EVER lied about and it was simply to protect somebody that I loved and cared about. I hear of people making comments about another person named Jay dying. I have NEVER in my fucking life called Jonathan "JAY".  Jaymar is a childhood friend of mine who DID died in the spring. I call him JAY and anybody that is on my face book MAY recall me facbooking his obit in spring because I was so upset about his passing.

Guys, I made an honest mistake. But I did not spend months manipulating people about carrying a child. I do not stalk people on youtube, twitter and facebook to expose dirt on them in blogs. I don't do these things. I am only half aware of what has been going on the last week or so and honestly I dont care. The only possible dirt that V could have had on me was exactly what Elliot told everybody. There is no gap to bridge between myself, Jonathan, Elliot Virginia, Annie and the Hoax. I have never in my life used Jonathan or his brother in relation to the death hoax. EVER and thats the truth.

I did something very stupid to myself but it actually had very little to do with this stupid internet shit thats going on. I do feel bad about not being honest of one aspect of all of this. But not to the point of actually giving a fuck anymore. All of you guys that are having a blast trashing me with old pictures and trivial shit that has already be revealed. Knock yourselves the  fuck out.  Because at the end of the day, no matter HOW hard you try. You will never EVER be me. You are using my name to make one for yourself and thats really pathetic. I am VERY sorry for the photo aspect of what happened. That is the ONLY thing that i'm guilty of. Are you fucking kidding me? I created Jonathan? For what reason would I have to do that? Because i'm a "gamer"? um???? I make death hoax videos damn good ones at that. I have an extremely premium boyfriend and pretty cool friends. I have no reason to do what i'm being accused of.  EVERYTHING that elliot said is true. Take it or take a fucking hike.

Leave me alone and stop this bullshit. Ok so you think that you exposed a liar? FINE you exposed a liar. Move on with your sorry excuse of lives and leave my name out of your mouths. ALL of you making blogs, twitters and videos etc, just stop it. Even if you think that you're helping I doubt that you are because its keeping the drama rolling.  I will be the FIRST to announce that I dont give a flying FUCK, with FAT ASS Andrea, V is for Vagina, Creachim Leachim and any other losers have to say about me. I really really REALLY dont.  I am strictly sorry to those of my FRIENDS that might be confused about what exactly happened with Jonathan and Elliot. THATS it. I owe anybody else shit. Because people look for reasons to hate you regardless.

My life got all types of fucked up for many reasons and im in the process of fixing that, because I know damned well what im worth. I know what I have to offer the world and people in it and I KNOW my obligation to Michael.  Please PLEASE believe me if you have never believed ANYTHING about me before, BELIEVE me when I say that I dont give a SHIT about these people bashing me. They are idiots with NO evidence of anything. NO proof to support SHIT. NOTHING. They found out about the pictures thing and ran with it. But again WHO GIVES A FUCK? I lied to protect my friends. IM SORRY . IT WAS WRONG.  But I did NOT fucking create these two dudes for some recreational fun. Get the fuck out of here with that bullshit. It doesnt even make  any logical sense. USE YOUR DAMN BRAINS.  If ANYTHING your story is more FEASIBLE

if you accuse me of being in on FUCKING with people with Jonathan and Elliot. But to say that I got bored and made them up? Are you fucking serious??? GROW UP. GET LIVES. I know that I am SO amazing that you can't stop being obsessed with me. But SERIOUSLY. STOP. Leahcim created a fucking FACEBOOK account pretending to be a PRO-WRESTLER. He is saying he is a Michael Jackson double?? Why is NOBODY saying shit to him? How about Andrea??? OH LAWD!!! Telling people that she was gonna send pictures of her kid and shit and how she had GESTATIONAL DIABETES BLAH BLAH BLAH. WHY IS NOBODY SAYING SHIT TO HER? 

DONT ANSWER THAT!! I dont CARE. LOL. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY dont care.

If you think that you are "taking me down" or "exposing me" you aren't!!! Because that would mean that I would have to give a fuck about what you are doing! I DONT!  I am fucked up ENOUGH without Internet drama. 

Look, I really AM sorry for not being honest about the photos. It was SHADY and it was WRONG. But I didnt want people fucking with them. IT WAS WRONG. But thats as far as it goes ok? Dude the pictures these fools are releasing are OLD. I am not skinny by ANY means, but im DEF not fat at all anymore and havent been for a few years. But why does that matter???? You are teasing how a person looks? GROW THE FUCK UP! I am NOT returning to this drama and this is the FIRST and LAST time that I am talking about this stupid shit again. I am away doing what I need to do to be the best damn person I can be. Because there are people in my life that DEPEND on me being ok. One of those people being my AMAZING boyfriend whom I fucking LOVE to death and I cant let him down. Guys I made a commitment to this hoax and a commitment to being on this journey of what has happened. These people that have dedicated their time to trashing me and fucking with me DONT care about Michael Jackson. Read V's FIRST blog and read the shit that he/she is doing now. These peoples SOLE purpose to try and destroy me. This douche has a chatroom now?? Are you fucking kidding me??? OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES. 

When I come back (and dont worry I WIL :D) I dont want to hear about any of this bullshit anymore. Its over with. These people can work day and night to tear down my credibility. They REALLY can. But it doesnt matter to me. I said it before I can lose EVERY subscriber on my list, but it does not matter because I was never in this for subscribers. Do what you want to do and believe what you want to believe but keep that shit FAR away from me because I dont care anymore. THIS IS THE FUCKING INTERNET. V or Andrea or WHOEVER THE FUCK does not have a heaven or hell for me. IS NOT MY FINAL ANYTHING. WILL NOT MAKE OR BREAK ME. BITCHES CAN KEEP TRYING BUT I AINT GOING NO MOTHERFUCKING WHERE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?  MY SHIT IS THE BEST, HAS BEEN THE BEST AND WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST. SOOOOOOOOOO That being said. I will see you guys in a few weeks when im better and ready to take on the world again. I am also adding something special to my youtube channel that I think you will enjoy :)

To all of you that have stood by my side and are choosing to forgive my mistake. You are amazing. For those of you who dont want to forgive my mistake but arent being immature little douche bags, then I respect you and im truly sorry. For those of you that want to make ya self an internet name off of talking shit on me, FUCK YA. Get a life and stop being so creepy because nobody gives a fuck.  You will NEVER break me. Do you understand that?

I love yaws and when I come back we goin have a PARTY UP IN THRILLER NIGHT. VIP bitches. It WILL be password protected. 

BYYYYYYYYYYE :D

FUCK EVERYBODY

FINE JUST FUCKING LEAVE! EVERYBODY DOES ANYWAY!!! :'( :'(
I DIDNT DO SHIT AND NOBODY KNOWS THE FUCKING TRUTH BUT I CANT TELL THE FUCKING TRUTH BECAUSE IRONICALLY I THINK THAT IM THE ONLY HONEST PERSON LEFT ON THIS PLANET.
YOU KNOW WHAT? SHE'S RIGHT YOU ARE SO DUMB. I KNOW THAT I DON'T DESERVE YOU AND IM NOTHING DIDNT NEED THAT EXTRA REMINDER TONIGHT. FUCK THIS BULLSHIT :'( FUCKING CRUCIFYING ME AND BACKSTABBING ME WITHOUT EVEN COMING TO ME AND ASKING ME WHAT WAS TRUE. AND FUCK YOU FOR JUST LEAVING ME LIKE THAT:'( SOMEONE ONCE SAID THAT THE HOAX COMMUNITY REPRESENTS THE WORLD AND THE PEOPLE IN IT? WHO WANTS TO LIVE IN A WORLD OF CRUEL PEOPLE THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN TRUST WHEN THEY SWEAR THAT THEY LOVE YOU?  IT'S NOT RIGHT AT ALL. HAVING FUN WITH AND MAKING JOKES WITH SOMEBODY THAT HAS DEDICATED THEIR LIFE TO BREAKING ME WITH FUCKED UP ASSUMPTIONS AND THEORIES. WERE YOU ALL APART OF THIS ALL ALONG???? IM WILLING TO TAKE TO MY GRAVE THAT YOU WERE. THAT'S SO FUCKED UP :'( :'( ALL OF YOUR LAST SHITTY WORDS TO ME WAS YOUR LAST TESTIMONY OF HOW YOU FELT ABOUT ME. I HOPE THAT MAKES ALL OF YOU FUCKERS PROUD. GOODBYE :'( :'(

Tsk Tsk

Ok. Sooooooo It's Monday and it's November 1st. AND I said that I wasn't going to back track into this garbage or drama and honestly I had no intentions on doing so. Because I do feel like Michaels message was getting lost in all of the trash and honestly his REAL fans don't want or need that kind of bullshit. But seriously something needs to be said.

You know I started out on this looking for truth and trying to figure out what happened to Michael. I've found answers to most of what I wanted to know, but there are things that im still trying to understand.  

Along the lines it was easy to get caught up in some things with people and drama and blah blah. So I did and it happened, it happened to a lot of us, but the important thing was us realizing what was going on, learning from it and moving on. Seeing the bullshit starters , the liars and the attention seekers and moving PAST that. 

I have move past it, i'm ok.. I really am. But there are some things that are just bullshit.

Seeking out private information on my family, GOING into my brothers facebook to get OLD photos of me to post in a video is completely wrong and total bullshit. Invasion of privacy is wrong.

But I have nothing to hide. I never thought that being a chubby highschool sophmore qualified as having to disclose that information to people in a death hoax.

This V decided to release photos of me in a youtube video, of myself MANY years ago and one with my EX boyfriend.  I dont know why the matter and there is no need to defend them, but those of you that have seen me on camera very recently can obviously see that the photos are old. But so what? This is how you "expose" someone? By attacking their physical appearance? Whether the photos were old or new or whatever why should it matter?  Is it not the same as people taking photos of Michael and making fun of him? Yeah MJ fans.

The next thing is a series of photos taken from I dont even know where and say that I claimed them to be my friend "jonathan" who passed away. Wrong again. I showed MY friend who did die ONCE in my chatroom with about 11 people there. None of those photos are the photo that I showed, so really i have no idea how this person pulled that one out of their ass. Those photos have nothing to do with me. What other people DO is THEIR responsibility and not mine. Got it? Good.

This "V" person is a person that has been harassing me on the internet for a few months ago along side two other people. I did contact the authorities and only recently heard back from them. Things are in order for a legal fight, but that doesnt matter.

This person "again" has nothing on me at all. They found my brothers facebook page through his youtube and got old photos of me. And then drew conclusions from some other bullshit that has nothing to do with me. I wont speak on it again because I dont give a shit. I'm just letting people know that before you believe some shit in a youtube video do your OWN research first.  Because its bullshit. I wont respond to anything else concerning this very bored BORED and sad person (people). But really Everybody should take a clue. We are in this for Michael Jackson. Whatever goes on in someones personal life is NOBODYS business. I do not pry into MJ's personal life. I dont pry into him having a girlfriend or if he drank or smoked or even did drugs. I try to get to the bottom of June 25th 2009.

Its completely wrong to dig into a persons privacy just to make up lies about them. All of you that are subscribed to that youtube channel and going along with that bullshit, really need to ask yourselves if you're in this for the right reasons.  

I have nothing to hide at all. I was a fat girl for a few years (nothing wrong with that) but made life choices and now thats changed. I dated a geek We are no longer together. I have only shown ONE picture of Jonathan and they sure as hell dont match any of the ones in that video. Thats fact. 

Thats all I have to say on that matter. Its November 1'st. Get back to what this is about and stop letting people distract you. Support MJ not bullshit! That is all :D 

 

Easily consumed

 I'm a lot of things but stupid is not one of them.

I am not needy or desperate for friends or attention. 

I don't intentionally hurt people because there is nothing better to do or nothing good on tv.

I did not get involved into the Michael Jackson death hoax because I saw it as a golden opportunity to get attention or internet fame.

You can always recognize that we are all human and we all make mistakes. People make mistakes

Most things can be forgiven.

Some things can NEVER be forgiven.

I am an extremly sensitive person.

When I call somebody my friend, I mean it.

Michael Jackson has made an unchangeable impact on my life.

Both good and bad.

I'm in love with a man that deserves way more than I could ever offer.

I mostly trust the wrong people in life and get fucked over for it.

I mostly distrust the right people in life and get fucked over for it.

(I've never in my life been skinny but hate most foods.)

See That is making everything all about me. That is me being an attention seeking bitch. I'm so glad that last night  all good friends were able to come together and discuss differences and get an understanding of many things that have gone wrong over the past few months. I was able to get a good nights rest knowing that there doesnt have to be a division amongst people that genuinely care about one another. I am glad that people got to say what they needed to say to clear the air. But some things are undeniable unforgivable and there are some words and actions that you cant just turn a blind eye to. All that I wanted to do before walking away from this was to bring peace of mind to the innocent people affected by this online drama. I sincerely apologize to people who just got caught in the middle of madness when all that they tried to do was enjoy Michel Jackson's hoax death investigation. It's not fair and everybody should not have been subjected to people hating me. There was a blog written about me. A very distasteful and sick blog written about me and I have no idea who wrote it. But i actually agree with most of it and i'm sorry with any of you that have been hurt by me even if it was unintentional. Someone told me today to go and look at a few twitters and get a perspective of who and who not to trust. It was like a knife in my heart to read some of the shit that I saw said about me and planned against me. Especially by someone that I honestly would have trusted with my life just a week ago. I spoke with this person last night and im glad that we did. But reading some of their tweets about me really really really fucked me up. Seeing a youtube interview done by a person who at one time I was planning to fly out to and spend a few weeks with, and to have him slam me against a wall on a youtube video, yeah does something to me. Things going on in my life out side of the internet, horrific things that I am experiencing that I refuse to bring to the internet because I dont want it later used against me, all of it takes its toll. I love Michael Jackson and meant every word of my last video. Its so important for people to get the grind of what really happened to him while exercising his message of peace everyday as well in a different experience. This started out about Michael Jackson and it should end being about Michael Jackson no matter what conclusion is drawn. It should not be about an unlovable fucked up girl that NOBODY can fully love or trust. I honestly hope that you guys do Michael justice and see what it is that he is trying to show us. All of you are smart and can work together to do this. I can not face another week of saying the wrong thing to piss the wrong person and risk a blog, video or tweet calling me the worst thought of names. Or accusing me of being people or characters that I am not. Telling me to kill myself or when my stomach bleeds from my ulcer telling me  to "bleed out". I just cant. I remember being four years old and my biological father looking me square in my eyes and telling me that I ruined his life, was unlovable and that I would spend the rest of my life just being a cancer on people. Its fucked up to be 26 years old and hear people that you thought loved you say the same thing. This is not just internet stuff that i'm talking about. I just learned to keep things going on in my actual life away from the internet because of what happened to me before. But there is something very VERY fucked up that im experiencing in my life right now that is also just too much to deal with. I really hope that you guys can now all find the peace and friendship that apparently i was keeping everybody from having. Im sorry. Michael Jackson deserves your full attention and your full dedication to what happened to him. Dont let anything or anybody stand in your way of that anymore. I love you. 

I wrote this

He is and was heaven  bound but heaven not just yet.

Seeking truth and untying tangled knots of hope and submitted confusion 

Staring into the sun and distorting a lost perception

Is he? Is he not?

Looking to everything. Looking to everyone for the answer.

Never looking to him.

Tidal wave of promise rushing to the tips of my toes

Pulling back just as I feel the sensation.

This battle fought for you was never meant to be lost or one

Only fought

I love YOU more.
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Actions Speak Louder than words

Ok, so a few months ago before all of the crazy drama in hoaxland, myself and some people from my chatroom came up with an idea to have some sort of organization , that would try to act on Michael's message.

It was a really cool idea that got interrupted by some things that started to happen. We never really got the chance to get back to it. It's not hoax related at all actually, but just a way to put forth Michaels message and what he tried so desperately to put out there in to the communties. The importance of children and helping one another out.

There were two separate entities 

1;) Operation S.C.R.E.A.M (Social.Consiousness. Recognizing. Equality And Morality)

I think with this, we were basically going to figure out ways to make people aware important it is have social consciousness in their actions in day to day life. How important it is to accept and respect one anothers differences. This could be done by having a website dedicated to posting stories of social injustice, having things signed and passed and finding different ways to raise online awareness. Mainly getting MJ fans to be a part of it.

2.) Operation C.R.Y (Collectively. Restoring. Youth)

It's always been so important to Michael for people to be aware of children and how important it is for children to BE children. Just in my own chatroom i've seen how children can spend the entire day in front of a computer screen when they should be doing something more productive with their time. If kids do spend a lot of time online there should be resources for them to find things more positive and less dangerous to do. This project could be a way to better safeguard kids online. Set up a positive social network  place. It also could be a part that raises awareness against child abuse, child homelessness and mental illness/issues that often affect teens.

These are ideas just thrown out there. But it's something that I want to start getting back into again. Everybody is sort of scattered and we never really put the idea out there for EVERYBODY. So here it is.

If you are interested in being involved in any way  please send me an email @ Mauramissesmichaelmouse70@gmail.com

I think that the dust has settled with most of the drama and im ready to put my money where my mouth is and DO something that proves that Michael has taught me A LOT about being aware of making CHANGE. If you are interested please contact me.

:)

Lisa Marie Interview Part 1

Alright so I just got through part 1 of the LMP interview with Oprah from today.

Alot of people seem to be trippin for some reason about her going on Oprah. 

I didn't see the entire interview yet, so I dont know what was said that have people so pissed off. 

From the first part though, I don't see anything really wrong.

 People are saying that she did this interview for the purpose of promoting her album . That doesnt even make sense if her album isn't even due out until way next year.

Lisa seems very genuine in this interview so far. She seems apologetic and sincere. She seems like she is finally being honest about her relationship with Michael. So far she does not seem like she has confirmed that Michael suffers from any sort of drug problem. Does she? She just said she became suspicious that there might be an issue after he collapsed in 1995. She did not say that there was an indication of DRUG ABUSE though.

I don't know what to make of the first part though. I mean as to whether she is carrying some kind of guilt because she really thinks Michael is dead, or if she is doing her friend a favor.

I do find it strange that all of these people are "setting the record straight" on Michael right around the time his name is uncovered. 

We all know that Oprah is a bitch, but TAJ confirmed that she had spoken to MJs kids too. Why would the family allow that? Are we starting to think that maybe Oprah has a bigger role in this than we think?

What are your thoughts?? Post below and let me know.

**Please keep this RELEVANT to the interview and hoax. Don't post trash about me. This isnt the time or place and is extremely disrespectful to Michael. Don't bring drama here ok?**

Closure

Alright. Staight and to the point. People feel inclined to keep coming to me and telling me that Andrea

(mjslove4ever) is hanging out in the Neverlandhomeroom and went on mic today to unleash a nasty rant about me.

Ok. REAL talk, im not playing this game with ANYBODY anymore. No matter who you are, what the situation is or isnt or whatever the fuck, im WALKING away from it.  But this is what im going to say and im done.

Over the past week I have been in the hospital ONE day and the rest of my time has be spent either packing, moving or spending 95% of my time with my boyfriend.

I am SAD and HURT by what happened with Andrea because there was NO explanation offered other than people wanted to walk away from the DRAMA. And I completely understand that. That is why  BOTH of my chatrooms were closed and a small private one was created. THAT is why i deleted MY twitter FIRST and made another one. Because I wanted the drama GONE.

I am VERY hurt and upset by what happened with andrea and a few others. MORE so her because Andrea was along side me the ENTIRE time drama was going on and we equally caused it.

She got pissed of f at ME because THEDOCTORSAID HATES HER. I am NOT the doctorsaid.

He WENT on mic in my room. He has spoke to many people and has released information about MJ that was true later. I am not this dude and MET him when you guys did. He does not like her because he says that she is untrustworthy, a liar and a trouble maker. He told me that awhile ago but I never listened to him because i DID NOT AGREE WITH THAT SHIT.

I dont KNOW what the fucking problem is. I really dont and I DONT care. I have MY life to live and thats what im going to do. I dont put up with this fuckign childish bullshit from anyone anymore.

I have come to realize that for as smart as I am im VERY stupid. I trust people that I shouldnt and get put in the middle of shit without realizing.

If Andrea or anybody wants to go on mic and bash me or insult me they CAN. Because I dont care anymore.

Something fucked up happened to me and made me realize how fragile and short life can be. I am focusing my time and energy on those that want to live a positive existence and not hurt people.

 I am human and I am hurt, but im not playing games with people anymore. Its not worth it. People keep threatening that they have shit on me. FINE release it. I dont GIVE a fuck. Because only GOD can judge me nobody else.

WHOMEVER you are, there is no need to tell me about Andrea or anybody else that wants to do things to hurt me. I am getting BACK to why I started this in the first place. Thats all I can and will do from now on from the time I  finish this blog. If Andrea is really in that room and on mic TELLING people shit about me, AGREEING with the racial attacks on me and the hate that the ROOM was put through. Then that speaks volumes and i dont need to hear shit from anybody, because in my honest opinion that means that I did not lose a friend.

Andybody that really wants to get back to MICHAEL, LOVE, NON-ONLINE DRAMA, NO LITTLE BITCH FIGHTS, JUST MICHAEL, LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP. Reach out to me and we can do that.

Somebody has to be the grown up and end this shit once and for all.

Andrea im just going to say to you. YOU were the one that found out about leahcim supposedly being John Cena, YOU told me not to trust  LYSA, JAMES and WHOS. YOU spent hours camped outside of neverlandhome "spying". I never did ANY of that shit. YOU were a catalyst with that drama and now you are trying to pin that shit on me and say "I understand you"? Are you kidding me?

We all fucked up and all of us acted STUPID this last month or so. But what you are doing is really wrong and messed up. You KNOW how much you contributed to that shit Andrea!!!! You were the fucking GO BETWEEN always running to tell what was going on or being said.  Now you want to hang in there and talk shit on me? SHHHHHHHHHITTT they can have your ass. Who needs enemies with friends like that???

All the shit you caused , all the times YOU wouldnt let it go and you are doing this? I almost want to apologize to A LOT of people in that room as well. I feel like a damn fool.. 

I dont have anything else to say on this matter. My life is not perfect, but its too good and has too much to offer to put up with this kind of bullshit. No matter what you fire back or do, i will NOT respond because you arent worth the attention that yo' ass wants.

"Let it fly if it dont apply"

Im done

:D

First and LAST address

Alright. So contuary to popular belief, the blog that I was going to do had NOTHING to do with the twitter drama that has been unfolding. 

I have been constantly harassed by these group of sick people for the past few months, but actually after RACIAL slurs were thrown at me, I finally went to the police and contacted the cyber-crime division of the FBI. 

Now this shit has gone a step further. Someone came into my very crowded chatroom and posted my home address, proceeded to threaten me if I called the police and informed me that I will be seeing them soon. Oh and also describing what my sister was wearing that day. (I'm totally serious there were witnesses to this)

The next morning I woke up to four slashed tires on my car and a very disturbing note that I won't repeat here for legal reasons. 

Needless to say this has gone too far, to the point of my personal safety being threatened and those that I love.

I know that there are about 6 to 7 people behind this harassment as some of them was doing it a few months ago, claiming that I was an unruly 16 year old child and creating fake profiles in my name and so forth.

As far as the blog, twitter and racial slurs. I specifically know the 3 people behind this. All three of which will be prosecuted.  

I have no named them yet and wont on a blog because I don't want to give them time to make up a bullshit lie to cover their asses, but of course by now they know that I who they are.

They continue to tweet and make blog posts, because the feel it will confuse me, but it's not confusing me at all. I know your tactic. 

But you went too far with this latest shit and now it has boiled over to a federal crime. 

The person that is in the U.K. You are not protected or safe there at all. I am and will travel there when we have to go to court for your involvement in this. I have the means to do so and yes I hate your ass THAT much.

The person that is behind the blog is sickest of all, but thats ok. This person is not only getting prosecuted for the harassment but an extra something special.

See some of what this blog said is true. I have not lied about anything concerning the death hoax. I really havent. what you see is what you get. Its your choice not to believe me, but all of my videos are theory. As for other things that I have mentioned its your choice to believe them or not.

Some of these people are coming after me because of things that I have no control over and are going to try to use that against me. But they will fail, because what a person does or says that is NOT me, has nothing to do with me as a person.

But this "V" person is right. I can't deliver or promise hope to anybody and I never have. There are many things that I know through my own research and through people that I know, but I have either not shared them with anybody at all, or shared them with a very small amount of people that I mistakenly trusted at the time.  But I have never promised hope in about Michael in ANY video. 

Michael has provided us with his own form of hope. Hope that he is alive and living his life. NOT that he will return to us or anything. 

Most things that I know about Michael, I keep to myself because I made the mistake of telling people something before and it completely backfired.

I don't play with people or mislead them. I hate when people do that and work very hard against it. But I am also the kind of person that likes to give everybody the benefit of the doubt, because you never really know.

I have made it NO secret what I feel Michaels message is. I do not believe that its all love and happiness and peace. I believe that those things are part of it, but I also believe Michaels message is about truth of what is going ON in our world and how it is being affected. Michaels message has got very little to do with how Maura is living her day to day life.

I have never claimed to be a person that likened myself to Michael Jackson. He is not my Jesus Christ or Messiah in any way. I love and respect him and do what I can to show people what I think he wanted us to see by way of his career and some life choices he made. But the buck stops there.

I am who I am and if Michael Jackson himself told me he  didnt like who I was, I'd tell him to fuck off.

But I am 100% certain that Michael has no problem whatsoever with who I am as an individual. Michael has had to live much of his life really stifling his true self because he was constantly judged by the masses. I think that he takes pleasure in people that are open with accepting who they are.

I am not a bad person. I do not hurt people. Any incident that has taken place, you will see that I am not the person that created the problem. 

People are telling MANY lies to justify their actions and its sick.

I am amazed that this V has actual followers on twitter. I am amazed that I was called a Nigger in front of two other black females and these two females still visit this chatroom AND talk and laugh with this person that did it.

People have the damn right to say that I MISREPRESENT  Michael Jackson? By being myself and not taking shit from people. But they terrorize, torment people with blogs and tweets. They support racism and somebody that is trying to STEAL Michael's identity and support over all abuse that is completely unjustified. 

This is all crazy and certainly not what I signed up for. I started doing this because I wanted to know what happened to Michael Jackson. I wanted to know if he was dead or alive. If he was safe or not and what his future plans were if was alive.

I have an answer to almost all of those things and have for some time now. 

I supposed that I got caught up in this life because it was something out of my realm of normalcy and was something very exciting. 

I met so many amazing new people that have changed my life in bad ways but most have changed my life in the best of ways. One person in particular has made my life so beautiful and perfect and without ANY Of this I would have never met him.

So I don't have any regrets. I honestly don't. But this is just not worth it anymore to me. Michael is safe and sound in the comfort of his home and working on his next career move and how to provide his children with the best and most normal upbringing possible. He's fine

I miss being fine. I am in a very good place in my life right now. In the process of going back to school for what i REALLY want to do. I have met the most amazing man on Earth that has shown me the real meaning of what life is all about. Love :)  And I have taken from this friends that I wouldn't trade for the world.

No matter what videos are released about me full of libel and defamation. No matter what tweets are done about me or what blogs are done about me. My CIRCLE OF FRIENDS know my heart and they are the ones that matter. I was never in this for any kind of fame so if a few thousand people hate me because of a lie. It won't bother me. Those that really love me and know me, will never believe such garbage.

I really have gone to the police about all of this, but I realize because it is a cyber crime it will take some time to process. There fore I am sure that there will be weeks of this to come. But thats ok. It builds a stronger case for court.

I am not going to respond to ANYTHING else regarding this situation... Its out of my hands now.

But you know, people should be very very careful... If you think that you are protected behind a computer screen you are very wrong. 

There are certain people involved in this that can not risk having their personal information exposed online. These people don't believe in letting the "law" take care of their troubles... They handle things on their own.

All jokes aside... Be very VERY careful who you fuck with online. Because you NEVER know who it is...

You were warned.

Exhibit B: The internet provides very little privacy...

IP Address:  217.12.4.215

Information on this IP address:

217.12.4.215 server location:
London in United Kingdom
217.12.4.215 ISP:
London

An IP address is exclusively provided by your ISP for YOUR network...  Any duplication of it is illegal and prohibited by law.

There are three separate email accounts/ people claiming to be VERY different people, using this IP address...

I did absolutely NOTHING illegal to obtain the IP address. It is provided when a person sends an email if you know where to look as well as cache skype convos/msn convos... 

I will provide documentation of proof that this IP address is shared by these "three people" if the harassment doesn't stop...

I warned you... I'm a woman of my word.. Leave me alone :) 

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND EVERYONE! I KNOW THAT I WILL!

Exhibit A: And So it Begins....

[7/11/2010 5:37:24 PM] Adam Adams: hello?
[7/11/2010 5:43:52 PM] Adam Adams: Hello! Please add me to your Contact list.
[7/11/2010 5:43:52 PM] Maura: Maura has shared contact details with Adam Adams.
[7/11/2010 5:44:14 PM] Maura: hey
[7/11/2010 5:44:50 PM] Adam Adams: Hello? can you help me
[7/11/2010 5:44:52 PM] *** Call to Adam Adams, no answer. ***
[7/11/2010 5:45:38 PM] Adam Adams: hey- i wondered if you could help me
[7/11/2010 5:45:47 PM] Maura: how can i help you?
[7/11/2010 5:46:03 PM] Adam Adams: god sorry,im really nervous
[7/11/2010 5:46:15 PM] Adam Adams: im shaking and crying right now,im so sorry
[7/11/2010 5:46:53 PM] Maura: what can i help you with?
[7/11/2010 5:47:36 PM] Adam Adams: i hope this doesnt put you out
[7/11/2010 5:47:47 PM] Adam Adams: has your friend filled you in at all?
[7/11/2010 5:47:53 PM] Adam Adams: Virginia?
[7/11/2010 5:51:12 PM] Adam Adams: i would really appreciate any help you could give me,
[7/11/2010 5:51:21 PM] Adam Adams: im so nervous-im sorry
[7/11/2010 5:51:58 PM] Maura: i dont have much time
[7/11/2010 5:52:00 PM] Maura: please
[7/11/2010 5:52:05 PM] Maura: tell me what you need
[7/11/2010 5:53:39 PM] Adam Adams: okay i'm sorry
[7/11/2010 5:53:58 PM] Adam Adams: well, im really worried and scared, and i dont want to be in the limelight
[7/11/2010 5:54:01 PM] Adam Adams: anyway
[7/11/2010 5:54:09 PM] Adam Adams: im 20 from the UK
[7/11/2010 5:54:25 PM] Adam Adams: I've never known my dad.i live with my mother step dad and half brother.
[7/11/2010 5:55:13 PM] Adam Adams: last year in august,my mum sat me down and told me, theres no easy way to say this,but that my potential father was Michael Jackson
[7/11/2010 5:55:37 PM] Adam Adams: she told me, she decided not to tell me to protect me.
[7/11/2010 5:55:46 PM] Adam Adams: when i was little he had the jordie chandler case
[7/11/2010 5:55:46 PM] Maura: what do you want me to do about that?
[7/11/2010 5:55:58 PM] Adam Adams: and as i got older there was the 2nd case
[7/11/2010 5:56:12 PM] Adam Adams: so my mum told me not she thought it was easier for me,not to know
[7/11/2010 5:56:40 PM] Adam Adams: ever since august,ive gotten over the shock. and have felt-scared,sick,worried,sad for months now
[7/11/2010 5:56:55 PM] Adam Adams: and ive been all over the place searching for answers
[7/11/2010 5:57:03 PM] Maura: i dont have contact with michael
[7/11/2010 5:57:05 PM] Maura: im sorry
[7/11/2010 5:57:10 PM] Adam Adams: grabbing on straws
[7/11/2010 5:57:24 PM] Adam Adams: i was told perhaps you could contact some sort of assoiciate?
[7/11/2010 5:57:32 PM] Maura: no
[7/11/2010 5:57:34 PM] Adam Adams: you dont need to give me any details
[7/11/2010 5:57:42 PM] Maura: i dont have contavt with michel
[7/11/2010 5:57:44 PM] Maura: michael
[7/11/2010 5:57:53 PM] Adam Adams: its just,if you knew anyone that could potentially help me
[7/11/2010 5:57:56 PM] Maura: or anything to do with his personal life
[7/11/2010 5:58:09 PM] Maura: i wish i could help you
[7/11/2010 5:58:30 PM] Adam Adams: do you know anyone that could know the family?
[7/11/2010 5:58:32 PM] Adam Adams: no?okay
[7/11/2010 5:58:41 PM] Adam Adams: im sorry to waste your time
[7/11/2010 5:58:52 PM] Maura: no its fine
[7/11/2010 5:59:08 PM] Adam Adams: i just dont even know who my dad is, or if he is even alive
[7/11/2010 5:59:08 PM] Maura: i just dont have contact with michael and people in his family
[7/11/2010 5:59:21 PM] Maura: wouldnt talk something this personal
[7/11/2010 5:59:50 PM] Adam Adams: even if i am his potential son?i mean i could have a whole other family.
[7/11/2010 6:00:01 PM] Adam Adams: i just want to know where i came from.who my dad is
[7/11/2010 6:00:11 PM] Adam Adams: do i have any other brothers or sisters.
[7/11/2010 6:00:21 PM] Adam Adams: but okay,iunderstand if you cant help me
[7/11/2010 6:02:07 PM] Adam Adams: i just dont even know if my potential dad is dead, 20 years without a dad and he could be dead y'know.
[7/11/2010 6:02:13 PM] Adam Adams: thank you for your time anyway
[7/11/2010 6:02:36 PM] Maura: your welcome dear
[7/11/2010 6:02:44 PM] Maura: im here if you ever want to talk
[7/11/2010 6:03:05 PM] Adam Adams: thank you.i guess theres nothin i can do.
[7/11/2010 6:03:13 PM] Adam Adams: i just gotta hope and pray hes alive and well
[7/11/2010 6:03:17 PM] Adam Adams: and that i get to see him
[7/11/2010 6:07:00 PM] Adam Adams: well,it would be really nice to become your friend
[7/11/2010 6:22:29 PM] Adam Adams: ?

Ok. So check this out. THIS is a very small fraction of what started some drama that caused a huge division amongst a group of people that really loved each other. I have sat back and let a lot roll... Im tired of ths.
The convo posted was a skype convo that I had with a person On July 11th...

After a month of digging. I have traced the owner of this skype account. I have also done some investigative work on a three people. I have uncovered MANY facts about these people

Here is the deal EACH and everytime one of your "minions" comes from your room starting some shit, I will post a little bit of information piece by piece ... This information will validate WHO you really are and all of the incredibly shady shit that you have done to fuck with people over the last 2 months...

No more tweet rants or room drive by pm's...
Just fact and truth... dare to try me?
Lets go...

Are they still waiting for Elvis to return?

When do you let go? Why are people expecting Michael Jackson to appear 15 months after he faked his death? Why does Michael not returning equal him being dead? Where do Michael Jackson fans get this sense of entitlement? 

Can someone please provide the logic of faking your death, only to return later to be like "Ya got me!!"

Am I slow? Or does it seem perfectly logical that Michael Jackson would fake his death, stay away, but still find ways for his fans to know that he is ok and has a message to deliver? 

Is something wrong  with me?

Wait... Don't answer that!

Fork In The Road...

There are many forks in the road of life. From the first time that we are able to (as infants) make our first conscious decision or choice about something, we also live with consequences of those actions. 

Some people believe that everybody's life has a predetermined "path". Fate? I use to be one of these believers... But my mind has changed in many ways. I now realize that when faced with an action there are always TWO distinct choices. Perhaps you don't realize it because the consequence of one action is unfathomable, but you still have TWO choices.  To execute an action or not... To say something or let it be... To tell the truth or tell a lie, because NOT offering the truth is TELLING a lie, even if you aren't directly asked.  So we are faced with these constant forks in the road of life. 

Do people ever think about that when they question a death hoax or death of Michael Jackson? 

That in BOTH scenarios, Michael would have been faced with many choices. With all four of those choices, there would have been consequences.  Let's look at them.

1.) + Take the propofol and get much needed rest, so that he could be functional during his next rehearsal. 

- (Consequence: Yeah... Your heart could STOP? You aren't in a hospital setting and even a person with little to NO common sense knows this is a hair brain idea)

2.) +Don't take the propofol and lay there until yo ass falls asleep the good old fashioned way. 

- (Consequence: You don't fall asleep at all, suck at rehearsals and get bitched at by the people throwing all of the money into it... But hey, you live to see another day. O_O)

3.) +Don't fake your death. Life can be a bitch and you know it after 50 years of this bullshit. Just hire extra security if you are being threatened, pull out of the shows if you just don't want to do them and get sued, after all everybody is suing you anyways, if you want your kids to have a normal life... Well see previous suggestion, when you are totally broke, they will have a REAL normal life in public school. Maybe you are just sick of "existing"... Get over it. We all have to live life until we kick the bucket. Face it.

-(Consequence: You hire extra security but it isn't enough when some sick person gets past security and grabs ahold of one of you children, pull out of your shows and all of your loyal fans that stuck by you forever are devastated and begin to question your character (for as fucked up as that is) and why they should support their favorite entertainer that promised to entertain but let them down, oh yeah and being SUED by these concert promoters and big wig sponsors, will without a DOUBT leave you penniless... Which comes down to the children and the life that they are accustomed to. Why should they have to bear the consequences of your actions and life choices. Face life like everybody else? Well, your life is NOT like everybody else. And being forced to just "face it" the way that it is, can lead to some very tragic events... Like taking a powerful anesthetic just to sleep... Has anybody EVER questioned what in the fuck could have been bothering Michael SO much that he had to take PROPOFOL just to close his eyes and sleep at night? Really think about that. :( 

4.)+ Fake your death! Why didn't you think of this before? You could totally rebuild your income, your legacy AND remind people of WHAT it is you were HERE for. If somebody is trying to hurt you or threaten you, well problem solved. They can't kill a person that is already dead. You don't have to do 50 grueling shows when you signed up for 10 in the first place!! Your fans couldn't possibly be upset with you because hey... Well not your fault that you died... But what's better, most of your analytical fans will  take a closer look at all of this and really start to question MANY things. What was that one song REALLY about? Did you really WANT to do that? What the hell was Michael Jackson trying to REALLY tell us? What kind of sick people were in his life? How was he so trapped? What kind of father was he? What are his children life/look like? Who WAS Michael Jackson really? Oh my god... Did Michael Jackson even DIE? :O :O :O

-(Consequence: You didn't think of this before, because you knew deep down inside that there are fucking snakes in your life... People that use this "Golden" opportunity to take from you financially and exploit the legacy that you are trying to rebuild.  The media will SURELY find a way to help the masses remember what you are "here" for... A drug addict right? A "Wacko" that was irresponsible and crazy and that TOTALLY always superseded the amazing "cultural dna" you contributed to the 20'th and  21st century. The people that were after you perhaps can't harm you, but can still harm somebody that you love and care for deeply... And you couldn't even go public to grieve appropriately. You didn't have to do your shows thats true, so you do a movie instead. It's a great film, but definitely does not capture your stage magic and NOT a good example of a last performance by the greatest entertainer that ever lived.  A good 50% of your most loyal fans believe that you were murdered and have spent the better part of 15 months absolutely unable to function or stop grieving over this tragic loss. Many "fans" have come try to come to understand your message but confused your message of "love" with just loving YOU and who they THINK that you were. A lot of your fans become resentful, spiteful and mean.  Those that actually believe that you are alive are completely missing the point of WHY you did this and instead develop their own agendas and will hurt other "fans" at any cost.  Epic fail Michael :(  And the children... Well I can't judge that situation because I don't know them. I know that they look sad often and very lost without you. Either way it was a tragic loss of their father to some extent... Either way you have to ask yourself... Was any of it worth it?

Positives and negatives to all actions that we take and all choices that we make. Life is fleeting. But so are moments and so are choices. Any choice that you make, any path that you take in that fork will either comfort you or haunt you for the rest of your life. Can we ever really know which will do which? Of course not. But here is the point that I am trying to make...

Everything that you do in life is a gamble, but a gamble doesn't have to REALLY be a gamble.

A choice doesn't have to be a mistake. It can be a regret-free LIFE LESSON. 

Today, I decided to be a regret-free person and an A-plus student...

Future attempts to make me "regret" knowing you, will fail.  Instead, I will take a long hard look at you, *smile* and remember your face, so that the next time a person comes along, with your agenda of fear, hate and dishonesty, I will close my eyes and see the cliffsnotes imprint of your fuckery in my mind... I will smile and I will turn around and walk away. REGRET-FREE.

Goodnight <3

 

There was double at the 02?

 Well that's just Jerlarious...

No... Sorry to break your hearts and fuck up your fan club... But Michael Jackson had no double at the 02...

But hey, i'm sure some celebs use doubles... Like John Cena?

Hey do you  guys know who John Cena is ?  Well here let me show you. :)

http://www.wwe.com/superstars/raw/johncena/

He is a Pro-Wrestler and hes now starring in Motion Pictures..

Here is the trailer from his new movie :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xRNsXdhB18

Here is is facebook in case you want to add him.. But he is overloaded with requests and has to add YOU.

Which he DID for me.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/profile.php?id=100001056294398

So he's John is sort of A-list and very well known... I didnt know much about him before he contacted me, but now see that he is a very cool guy. He is also very good friends with Chris Tucker...

John contacted me last week on facebook. Said he would be interested in coming to my room... He has come two or three times already...

People (fake doubles)  find it funny to keep taking to their twitters that I said he was in my room just to get people to come in... He says this because he acts like a 12 year old girl that constantly pms's rather a 40 something year old. And also because he is mad that someone was smart enough to play him at his own game...

SO  i'm just going to go ahead and post for anybody in doubt that still believes this guy isnt full of shit, the messages John sent to me before and after visiting my room. click them to enlarge

 

 

 

 

 

Listen .. John Cena is not the first and CERTAINLY not the last celeb to contact me about my videos... I dont boast about it because unlike SOME people I dont have an agenda for "fame" or popularity... I only showed this to make a point.

I made this blog because im tired of people talking shit. If you want to throw stuff at me and talk shit, fine. Because I will come back in full swing no problem.

Im not angry at you and I dont care about your opinion of me. I have a very VERY beautiful life right now. 

But if you want to make an ass out of yourself for the non-brainwashed middle aged women and troubled "young adults", be my guest. 

I'm doing this to burn time before another AMAZING night... Thanks for amusing me of ten minutes :)

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Well I think John Lennon died... And if he was alive. He's about peace, love and appreciation of people... Don't think he would go :)

Maybe we should be watching the sisters???

Click screen shot to see bigger!!

 

Wow... What are the Jackson sisters up to tonight? This is getting ridiculous.. Don't worry! We will keep it up boo!

In other news... People are still losers with nothing better to do but stalk me... *yaws* When are you going to get bored?  I've been for weeks now :D